rae-rae and her favorite elephant straps.

Mummy, will you ever trust me?.. Just once?

Wasn't it horrible when I already told you that the school fees got to be paid by tomorrow?..

Why don't you believe me and check the letter when I was out with dad?..

DAMN.

Why do I have such mother?

And also, although I love to prepare things for people,

but I'm not born to serve everyone forever,

so please don't take me for granted.

Mummy, I had enough of you.

EVerything is about your son, your son and YOUR SON,

since you dote him so much..

please tell him all your problems instead of telling me everytime.

I've already realised that no matter how much effort I put in,

I'm just someone whom you'll scold as and when you like, 

and forgetting my presence when your son is with you.

I've already done my part as a daughter and sister,

my patience is up to limit. 

I'll learn how to love myself and dad only,

it's time to go selfish. 

Don't blame me on that,

I'm being forced by you to do so. 

I hope to leave,

but I can't afford to live on my own now.

Perhaps, 5 more years is needed to grant my wish,

and also, I don't mind going back to malaysia with dad,

living in dad's beloved house at Muar. 

Of course I'm worried and working hard now,

I'm only 19 years old, but dad is turning 60 like in 2 years,

unpredicted things might happen.

If dad is gone one day,

do you think mum and bro will go out and work?

Well, I don't think so.

And isn't it obvious that dad is the only person who doted me most?

He ever mentioned that one day he's not around,

it gonna be really bad for me.

That's why I'm working so hard to become independent,

just incase anything happened to him,

I'll still be strong and able to take care of myself. 

DAMN.

And people still say that I'm sotong last time,

I'm never a blur person alright.