rae-rae and her favorite elephant straps.

Oh.. It was such a M O O D Y day.

Mummy, can I ask you a question..

Do you dislike me since the day you gave birth to me?

I'm not a dummy for you to throw against the wall when you're unhappy.

A very petty person who doesn't allow her daughter to be better than her,

you must have everything,

and I find it weird when it comes to money matter.

Soon okay.. Soon, I'll bring up everything and let everyone knows the secret.

I'm not sure about kor, but seriously.. both Pa and I can't take it anymore,

it's time to voice out.

WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?.. 

WHY?

WHY?

WHY DON'T YOU KILL ME SINCE YOU DISLIKE ME?..

It's a torture to see the unfairness..

you always say that kor is very obedient..

so what have I done wrongly?!

Do I deserve such punishment from you?!

Because I'm not as good looking..

because I'm not as smart and clever..

because I'm close to papa..

MUMMY... you are TOOOOOOO...

ARGHX!

TAI XIAN SHI!

Something that I don't understand is that..

what is it to be jealous about when I'm close to papa?..

I'm your daughter lerh!

I'm spending alot..

ARE YOU SURE!..

Since I left lasalle..

you only gave me 100 bucks per month.

I thought it was fine..

as I'm selling my own work and probably starting bead class if it's possible.

Goodness..

I couldn't believe what you told that lady this afternoon,

you're too much.

Papa didn't know about the 100 bucks thingy,

and he thought that was totally crazy.

Don't force me mummy..

Don't force me to say out everything that you did to me.

I can't take it because..

you always thought that I don't have to use money on my own basis. 

I mean it's unfair..

does it means that only you and kor have the right to use?

Don't force pa to take back everything from you,

I already said that you're not the queen. 

And HELLO.. I'm 19.. turning 20,

so please don't treat me as though I'm a three years old kid.

Enough of that.

I'll be having ballet class again, Joni will be my instructor and the class will be conducted with another lady. I'm always asking for small class, so this will be good.. just three of us. 

I'm working on a new range of accessories, using shinwa air dry clay and fimo baked clay to construct flower and dessert motifs. I love air dry clay.. it's so light and clean, and most of importantly very easy to work with. 

I'm feeling depressed.

It have been 3 weeks that I couldn't sleep well..

GOODNIGHT! :(